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07 May 2007 @ 10:41 am
it's that dreadful feeling again...
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28 March 2007 @ 04:54 am
woke up not too long ago feeling cold lonely scared confused n utterly exhausted. the things nightmares can do to you... but it is what it is right? jus merely nightmares? playing on our most intimate fears?

anyway.. tonight was the first night i slept alone in what felt like quite awhile. woke up to this thought i cant seem to rid of all day n i suddenly realize that there's a part of me missing somewhere out there. this part of me that ive been lacking for awhile.. is the 'connection'.

have i suddenly disconnected myself? on purpose???

heading back to bed. hopefully will wake up w/ either better dreams.. or w/ no dreams at all.

we cant have it all can we? but why does it feel as though i once did.. jus never really learned how to hold onto it?

we all have choices n decisions to make.. but do we make those that make us happy? or jus enough to get by?
thu thu..
26 February 2007 @ 12:39 pm

so much has changed.. some for the better.. some not. but @ the same time.. i feel as tho i've turned into the person i once was years back. insecure.. uncertain.. angry. its as tho i went back in time.. cept w/ different ppl in my lives.

just when i thought i've put an end to the cycle.. i find myself back where i once started.. lost.

thu thu..
22 December 2005 @ 11:29 pm
hope the new year brings you much happiness :)
hope everyone's taking care!
thu thu..
04 November 2005 @ 11:02 pm
i guess xanga has pretty much taken over what lj used to be to me.. but lj still holds a part of me that no other can replace.. that's a past. perhaps its a past i may not neccessarily want to revisit.. but it still is my getaway..

i hope all is well...
thu thu..
17 August 2005 @ 01:29 pm
.w/ so much left unsaid between the actual 2.. anger builds up.. n creates tension amongst all. whats said is said n cant be taken back. if you dont mean what you say.. then what good is your apology? your words should be valid at all times.. not in one instant more than another. ppl can get mad all they want.. it doesnt change the situation nor does it change what's fact. you can only bend over so far for a person. as far as im concerned.. some relationships jus arent worth the headache if its gonna keep on going downhill the way its been. its jus pointless bashing each other back n forth when you dont see eye to eye.. cuz ur only gonna see your point. those that havent said anything doesnt mean they dont have an opinion.. they'd jus rather keep to themselves n not make things worse off. im not a hater.. jus stating the facts from what i see.
thu thu..
11 July 2005 @ 11:43 am
we're not a couple.. he's jus my bf. thats how im gonna see it from now on. all my social outings dont include him anyways.. so technically.. im single? heh.. id like to see it that way. its not that i dont include him.. he'd rather not be a part of it. wtf is that? i need to do some serious thinking. do i want a guy in my life who's not really a part of my life?

i did fine before.. but now its gotten to the point where.. i dont know where im @ w/ this relationship. i can hang w/ ur friends but u cant hang w/ mine/feel comfortable w/ mine? its one thing if im out w/ jus the girls or we're going clubbing/drinking or something.. but im @ a wedding.. a coupley event. n when they're seating us @ a couples table.. it is like hell. if they were seating me w/ jus merely friends who dont have dates.. thats a different story. makes me feel like shit when the others are w/ their dates of only few months n asks me.. oh.. how come you didnt bring your bf. its not that i didnt bring him.. he didnt want to go. n i cant force him to..
thu thu..
01 July 2005 @ 11:19 am
hope everyone has a safe n fun 4th!! :)
thu thu..
20 May 2005 @ 10:22 am
i am so proud of kim n lan w/ the production of Kaleisia Tea Lounge. there are no words that can describe this feeling @ the moment. they've worked so hard for this.. n it truly is a great outcome.

Current Mood: happyhappy
thu thu..
19 April 2005 @ 07:22 pm
n it happens once again.


perhaps i bring it upon myself...